I’m my own worst critic. It’s cliché but true… *sigh* When I make a mistake I beat myself up over it. I struggle with taking compliments and often talk about myself in a way that would get a stranger slapped for saying the exact same words. It’s gotten so bad that my BFF had to say, “Please stop talking about my best friend that way.” I’ve tried to stop but I’m constantly finding something to criticize myself about: my skin, my weight, the state of my finances, my effectiveness at work, etc. No area of my life is safe from destructive criticism. However, there’s hope for me yet!
I recently read a quote from Sara Lucado (daughter of author Max Lucado*) which read, “Don't have any thoughts about yourself that God wouldn't have about you.” How powerful is that! Especially knowing that God loves me and considers me part of “a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a peculiar people”**. It also reminded me of this verse:
“Death and life are in the power of the tongue: and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof.” Proverbs 18:21Keeping these things in mind I’ve decided to forgive myself for all of my faults and past mistakes. Instead of harping on my negatives I’m determined to start speaking positivity into my life. Do I have things I need to work on to improve me? Definitely! However, verbally abusing myself doesn’t do anything to make things better. I’ve decided to devote more of my time to making plans and progress and less of it complaining and becoming stagnant.
On my refrigerator I have the following passage from Marianne Williamson’s book, “Return to Love”.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
This needs to be my personal motto and the same can probably be said for some of you. With that said, your homework assignment for today (and your lifetime): forgive yourself! It may be hard but it’s necessary.
I love you, you love me (No Barney),
*I love him! Read his book “Fearless: Imagine Your Life without Fear”. It’s a great book and encourages you to “Pray More. Worry Less.”
**1 Peter 2:9 "But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvellous light”